Typing into a room full of strangers
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20 years… 20 YEARS of dieting, struggling, fighting to take control of body.
20 years of fat phobic doctors.
20 years of fatigue, body pain, struggling with clothing, feeling like a spectacle, having to apologize for my hips on every aircraft, fear every chair I sit in, watch people look me up and down, listening to others comments, unsolicited advice, not wearing shorts, overheating in the summer because I won’t show my arms or legs, of apologizing for my body…of failing to lose the weight and keep it off.